Reminiscing Through Music...Wow MEMORIES!

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Early this morning while I was stuck in bed, having the worst contractions ever, I read through a post that a friend of mine shared about 90's music. It really took me back to a certain time in my life for each song. They all reminded me of something, someone, an event, whether it was good or bad. For some reason Music makes the memories sweet no matter what the circumstances were for that memory. Below I comprised a list of old songs I listened to as a kid or teenager that brought back so many memories. Also, there is a significant change in my music tastes from then till now!

I figured I would just do these as they came to mind.

First up is one that I heard on this list this morning. It takes me back to when my first boyfriend broke up with me. O Town, had this hit All or Nothing (2000)...man I believe I was not the only girl who played this over and over.


That then brought me to another one that I played over and over with tears running for weeks. Allure - All Cried Out (1997)


I am the biggest tom-boy ever, so when I finally was into a boy, and had feelings other than just my normal hunting, 4-wheeling, fishing buddy, it was HUGE for me. I honestly had a very hard time with that since we were together for 2 years, and he was my first "love".

We had a beautiful song for the time, lol, Back Street Boys - I Want It That Way (1999) (sick I know lol). I mean it was the song on the radio when we shared our first kiss.


We had spoken of getting married someday...The song I loved for that was Edwin McCain - I Could Not Ask For More (1999). It was also our homecoming song that year.


Then I was thinking about songs that made me happy. Maybe for no reason, but they are positive memories.

My dad was in love with Paula Abdul, I a sure like most guys then. Paula Abdul - Opposites Attract (1989). Makes me feel like a kid dancing in the living room.


Every girl my age had to love NKOTB! New Kids On The Block - Step By Step (1990)


Then I thought about Bryan Adams - Everything I Do (1991) And how I thought Kevin Costner was the hottest guy alive in Robin Hood.


Or how much I loved him in The Bodyguard... Whitney Houston - I Will Always Love You (1999)


And I loved hearing this song over and over and belting it out before school on MTV - when they still has MUSIC on there. Meatloaf - I Would Do Anything For Love (1993)


Oh my goodness, who could forget the AMAZING voices of Boyz II Men?!? They had so many I loved, however, I am pretty sure On Bended Knee (1994) was my fav at the time.


Just a Friday night slumber party?!? Get out the Montell Jordan - This Is How We Do It (1995)


Singing with the girls at those slumber parties?!? Spice Girls - WannaBe (1996)


Wow, I had so much fun going through these. Maybe I will do another one of these. Going back brings smiles to my face. With the baby coming in 13 days, I have been pretty down and out because I can't do much and I am supposed to be on bed rest. Sure tell my 2 kiddos with special needs that. Hoping to get feeling better real soon and get back to blogging full time!

Funny Pregnancy Questions from my 5 year old...

So, today we were doing some grocery shopping, and my daughter who is 5, had some very interesting questions for me.  I was not really prepared for these since when I was pregnant with her, my son was only 2 1/2 - 3 years old.  His questions were way different.

Nevaeh starts out:

Q:  Does my baby brother have eyes and ears?

A:  Yes.
Immediately sticks her face onto my belly and yells at him...Can you see me?? Can you hear me??

Q:  Mom, why he not answer me, doesn't he have a mouth?

A:  Yes, he has a mouth, but can't answer you from my belly.

Q:  Can we give him your phone to call us?

A:  No, sorry, there is no way to give the phone to him.  You'll see him very soon.  He won't be able to talk at first, he will cry and laugh though.

Q:  How does he get a bath in there?  How do you change his diaper and his clothes without us seeing?

A:  Well, he gets a bath when mommy does, and he doesn't have diapers or clothes right now.

Q:  Ewe so he is naked????  All the time, in your belly?????? (Very inquisitive facial expression)

A:  Yes honey, he has no clothes or anything in there.  We will give him all the things we bought for him when he is born.

Q: Oh geez, is he ever gonna come out and meet me and Zach (the older brother he is 8 now)??

A:  Yes, he is coming around Valentine's Day. He will be so excited to meet his big brother and big sister!

Q:  Does he ask you about me?

A:  Baby girl...he can't talk right now.  He has to learn to talk after he is born.

Q:  So, he's not going to play with me when he gets here?

A:  I am sure he will...he just has to grow a while before he can play.

This was a fun conversation while in Wal-Mart...

The Accident, Getting Back to Blogging, and Family!

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So, really this whole past almost 2 years have been incredibly hard for my family and I. We have had so many things come up and push us to our limits. It started with the return of my fiancee's mom and his niece and nephew in May of 2011. We helped them get back to PA from AZ. Then some things happened, and we ended up fostering the kids, the little boy for 7 months and the little girl for a year. Luckily, they were able to go home with their parents. I am still recouping and helping my kids through from that situation. Between my 2 and the 2 foster kids, all 4 kids had delays or disabilities of some type to tend to, and the Children and Youth were anal about the care of the 2 as foster kids, so in turn my kids kind of got shoved out of the way for quite some time during these past almost 2 years. Now that that is finally over, my kids are having a hard time adjusting and understand what the heck happened, why did these kids come live with us for so long, why did they leave. They miss them, even though they are family, they like quite a distance away so we could really only visit on occasion due to finances and limited time, with schedules.

I posted that I was spending some much needed time with my family and was taking a break...then it happened. The accident, on November 7, 2013, at about 10:45 am. There we were, my daughter and I on our way to a speech therapy session, she was so excited because I let her pick a can of Pringles and am orange pop at the gas station because she had been so well behaved all morning. She did all her homework, she colored with me, we did some activities together before speech and she was just being so GOOD! As we went downhill on a bad S turn in a 35 mph speed zone, there he was, a guy in a dark blue van in our lane and he hit us head on. He was doing almost twice the speed limit. I was doing well under the speed limit, as we drive this route 2 times a week and I know that turn is bad.


He pushed my 1998 Chevy Blazer about 15-20 ft backwards uphill, his van sped backwards, downhill, into the guardrail on the driver's side of his van pinning him in. My airbags deployed, smoking up the whole vehicle, I couldn't breath as the wind was knocked out of me. My daughter was screaming for me and I could not speak, I couldn't get the door open, being 26 weeks pregnant I couldn't make it to the passenger's side to try that door. I finally caught my wind, let her know it was going to be ok, I was fighting my way out of the car to get to her, then I got my head on straight and realized all the doors locked on impact, so the doors may not have been smashed shut. A wonderful woman who lived near the site of our accident cam running down trying to help me get her out. My poor girl was crying hysterically. She was so scared and I can't blame her. I was terrified, I checked myself all over to make sure I was not bleeding, I waited to see if I could feel the baby move, and I couldn't I was so terrified. My baby girl was scared, but she doesn't feel pain right, she has a sensory disorder, and sometimes she has no idea she is hurt. She kept yelling mommy my chest hurts. All I could do was cry. The woman who had come from her home to help got us calmed down and asked if my daughter could just go to her house while the police took our statements and info and we awaited EMTs. Dazed and nudged by the fire fighters who had shown up I let her. I was not bleeding, I felt so crampy, I prayed that I was not losing my baby. I walked to the man's vehicle, his airbag did not deploy. He just kept saying he could not breathe.

My vechicle.






The van that hit us.




I ran up the hill to check on my girl, she was ok, she was so scared mommy was hurt, and then it hit me, I couldn't move my fingers, I couldn't straighten my arm at the elbow...Ouch. The EMTs came and took my daughter and I to the ambulance. An officer was trying to get my statement and information while the ambulance doors were slammed on him because they needed to get a monitor on the baby to make sure he was ok and I was not going into labor at 26 weeks! I was yelling at them like a crazed mother because they were not understanding my daughter could be severely hurt and not know it. They thought I was nuts...it took me a few miles in the ambulance to get them to look at her. Same with the ER. They weren't concerned with her because she "seemed" fine. After they assured me she was checked out I was sent up to the birthing suite to have the baby monitored. I got a nice little picture of his face, his heart was strong and no contractions, I just had cramping from the impact and the airbag. Then I realized just how bad my hand, wrist and elbow hurt. They finally after a couple hours of observation on the baby took me for some x-rays. To my surprise, NOTHING was broken. The way my hand and wrist were distorted I thought it was shattered! They sent me back for some more observation, my cramping went away, his heart rate went to normal rates and we all got to go home. around 8 pm.

Baby Kenny was angry!
My son was at school and didn't even know until he got out of school and daddy was there to pick him up and his sister was not on the bus that something was wrong. He was so scared when they came back to pick us up. This was probably the worst thing that has ever happened to my family. My daughter had nightmares for days. She wouldn't let my fiancee leave, she didn't want to go to school because she was afraid something would happen to us while she was gone. She is still a bit jumpy while in the car, but getting better.

Then came the bullcrap! The officer that was on our scene was not even in until 4pm the next day (which was a Friday!) for me to get any information for my insurance. After I did speak to the trooper, I was very dumbfounded. The man who hit us was driving for a Children's Center! Luckily he had NO children in the vehicle at the time. I learned he was not able to speak because of broken ribs and a possible punctured lung, this is what I was told by a friend who read it to me out of the paper, I didn't even see it. I hate to see ANYONE lose their job during this bad time in our country, but I honestly hope this man will NOT be driving any longer! -- I needed a rental BAD, we live in the country, our driveway literally goes 1/2 mile into the woods! We are 3 miles away from a gas station or grocery store. I got no information from the other driver because he was pinned in his vehicle and could not talk, and the ambulance took us away. The cop slipped me a small sheet of paper with a few little things on it and that was all I had. We had no car until the following Tuesday! Man that was HARD. We live so far from my family and we really don't know a lot of people around here.

Finally the rental (this is a great truck for anyone in the market).


Our 2002 Explorer XLT that replaced our Blazer.


My parent's couldn't even help us out, because the Saturday before I was hit head on, my brother (who is 6 years younger than me), while drunk, hit a parked SUV with his SUV which then went through a house! Luckily, he had some bruises, a sore hand, and only 8 stitches in his forehead, he was just banged up, nothing serious. Also, the people whose house he drove through were not injured at all. His car was totaled and my parents lent him theirs so he could make it to work until things were straightened out for him. I am against drinking and driving, I mean sure I have done it, but I grew up and I would rather stay home and have a few drinks then go out and risk hurting someone or myself. My brother has definitely learned his lesson. He had a 1997 Ford Explorer and hit a 2013 Kia Sportage and totaled that as well. The SUV he hit was pushed into a neighboring porch and my brother's vehicle went through the people's bedroom of the house the Kia belonged to.



My brother's car.






What's left of the Kia Sportage he hit...


I didn't get any pictures of the house he hit or the porch the other car was pushed into. My brother and I sure have our differences and everything, but I was very scared for him, and am definitely glad he is ok and hope he continues to stay off the drinking, especially when he has to drive.

I have not really been able to get on too much because of my wrist and elbow. I can almost fully straighten my elbow out to type, it is still very painful and sore, and I can't take anything but Tylenol because of the pregnancy. I would die for a muscle relaxer right now lol. I had to go to a specialist last Friday (the 22nd) to have a trauma induced ganglion cyst drained, EWE and OUCH!

So, November has been pretty eventful. Not good events, but busy non the less. I am making it my mission to get everything back up and running starting Saturday, the 30th! I miss blogging and interacting with all my wonderful readers! You guys truly are wonderful and I received some of the most wonderful messages and prayers from you. It did my heart some good to see people cared as well and I want to shout out a BIG THANK YOU!

Spending time with my family...

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I have been a little silent for a while now. I have so many things to get done, so much content I wanted to share with all of my wonderful readers. My kid have been having a hard time adjusting since our lil foster girl left, I have been fighting with the school over my daughter's needs, and my son needs a math tutor that I can not afford. Things just build up sometimes, I am sure for everyone, not just myself. So many things have been going on, and I will admit, I just didn't feel like blogging. That may sound terrible, because I LOVE blogging and interacting with all of my wonderful readers, but really, I just did not want to do anything, not just blogging, ANYTHING.

So, my fiancee and I have made some decisions that will hopefully help us out. My wonderful Aunt/God Mother has decided to let us fix up her house that has just been sitting for 4+ years. It is only yards from my parents' house. I have a lot of family up there. I will have a lot of support, especially with a new little one on his way in February. I am having a terrible time with the school here with my daughter mostly, but my son is having issues also, but this school only offers reading tutoring, no math, which is what we need. I am so frustrated with the math they are having him do, to me it is very stupid. All the extra steps for the kids to take only make more margin for error when completing problems. My daughter, is not autistic, but has autistic traits, ie: sensory processing disorder etc... The school is refusing to let her take her tactile therapy things to school because it will distract other students while she uses her fidget toys. So, now my daughter is losing recess, becoming aggressive toward other students, and defying teachers and other staff. Her behavior is carrying over at home also. I have had her evaluated for behavioral therapy and we have had a few sessions, so far only a little progress.

I am beside myself, watching my kids be so unhappy. I mean, all we as parents want for our kids is for them to be happy and healthy right?!? I have been so depressed lately over this whole school thing. My daughter LOVED school for the 2 years she was in Head Start. The school worked with her needs and she never had a problem. Now, my child cries daily to stay home and just do worksheets for me, "Mom I will do whatever you give me - Don't make me go!" (Well, pretty much that is what she says since she has a speech disorder.) My son dreads coming home because of the homework. He doesn't understand it and I don't understand why they do things they way they do... Then I show him different things and his teacher will tell him I am wrong...now how are you supposed to help your child if they are constantly being told you are wrong, and they then lose their trust in your knowledge? I can't even explain the way I have been feeling lately.

I am hoping to finish up several posts I have started over the past few weeks and get in some giveaways. I am really just not with it, and have been spending much needed time with the kids and myself. Hang in there with me everyone! I will back up and running ASAP!

Thanks for reading, and I will keep updates on what is going on! Also, if you have any ideas on what I might be able to do to help my kiddos out, please by all means leave me some comments or email me zcscooby@msn.com! Thanks for listening, I will have somethings up tomorrow!

Just a little update...pregnancy and stuff.

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I know millions of women everyday are pregnant. Some people love to be pregnant. However, I have had some bad reactions to pregnancy. Granted, I love knowing I have a little mini person in my womb, but the little plum sized fetus is making me extremely sick! I had a fantastic pregnancy with my first (my son). No issued what so ever. Didn't even gain over 7 lbs until my last month, then it looked like I swallowed a basketball lol. I had a hard pregnancy with my daughter though. They thought I had an aneuresym in my brain. I had no diagnosable symptoms, as none of them went together at all. My blood pressure is always good (knock on wood) however, every time I would sit up, stand up, move to fast, etc... my blood pressure your shoot up really high, then drop really low, causing me to pass out and get really bad headaches. I went to like 8 specialists during her pregnancy and never found out why. But all symptoms stopped after her birth, so all I got was - this was pregnancy related...no diagnosis.

So far with this little one, I was so exhausted, I mean like CAN NOT MOVE AT ALL tired. Had some blood drawn to find out my iron level was dangerously low, like under 3 and I suppose it is supposed to be between 11 and 15 while pregnant! Also, my platelets are super low, and they can't figure it out. No other tests are coming back with a positive to give me a reason. This past week or so, as you all have noticed (I have been posting YES!!) I have felt pretty good. Got my iron up to 9.6!

I have had cervical cancer before, and my mom was diagnosed at the age of 27 with breast cancer...so I have been getting Mammograms every year since I turned 18 because of ongoing forming lumps, which they call fibrocystic breat disease. No biggie, yeah I can't shop at Victoria's Secret for great bras with 2 way different sizes breasts, but oh well, sports bras are more comfy any ways :P However, a 8 weeks into the pregnancy (I am 12/13 weeks now) I found a pea sized lump. Nothing to worry about boobs change during pregnancy, we all who have kids know this. Within 2 weeks of that this wee little nuisance has become a little bigger than a bouncy ball you would get out of the quarter machine at the grocery store. That is kind of scary.

I has an ultrasound a week or so ago, and they said it was just a cluster of my cysts becoming enlarged with the pregnancy...but wanted me to have a consult with a surgeon to make sure. Well, today was that appointment... He didn't see concerned, besides how fast it grew and that it was still growing, and that there is strong family history of the cancer. So we agreed to do a biopsy. I didn't realize we were doing it right then and there in the office, as my fiancee waited in the waiting room with my 2 kids and our foster girl, so he could just head to work. After they were done, I was like not to bad after all. However, after that medication wore off LOOK OUT SISTER! It feels like someone kicked me in my ribs! Not to mention lifting my arm up to get things in the kitchen, do laundry or dishes. Anyone else been through this sort of thing during pregnancy? I would love to hear your comments. Of course they have to keep me waiting until August 2nd to find out the results, but I am praying for GOOD NEWS.

Our little foster girl is leaving August 14th to go back with her family! I am sure this will be hard on my family, missing her, and so on, but she needs a mom, her mom. No matter how much we give her we are still not her parents, just her Uncle and Aunt (in Law I guess). Things will slow up a lot after she is relocated also, as 8 appointments a week are removed from our schedule. I have been struggling for this past year to keep the blog going. I am so grateful for everyone who has stuck by me, friends, family, followers who have landed here, fellow bloggers, YOU ARE ALL AMAZING!

We are having a baby!

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Well, I am pregnant! Only about 7 weeks, but I was totally not ready for it. I asked the Dr. about stopping birth control because they told me that it could take up to 6 months to get pregnant after the amount of time I was on it (almost 5 years). This was not the case it seems, I only stopped it in April, and BAM already pregnant! I mean, I thrilled to be having another baby. My kids are super happy about the little one coming too. Of course, my daughter will kill me if it is not a boy, since she was the only girl around until our foster girl came along, she tells me "I want a brover, this grill fing not workin!" That is exactly how she pronounced it and all with her phonologic disorder.

I have been doing some window shopping for the baby, I can't wait. This will be the last one, since I had so many problems with my daughter's pregnancy, not sure how this one will go, and I have had cervical cancer and breast cancer, I believe it is time to tie the tubes. I really don't want to get much older either, I am already 30, and man I don't want to be a senior citizen when my child is a senior in high school. Bless the people out there with the energy to still handle that thing at their age! I will probably have tons of baby reviews and giveaways going on through the new year so stay tuned and enter to win! I am due February 2, 2014.

Our lil foster girl is heading back with her mom on August 14th is not sooner. This will free up more of my time and I can get things back on track. There are just so many things required for her since she has so many issues. She has more therapies a week than my daughter, and I was super busy with just her and my sons appointments. Zach has, since I last updated everyone, been diagnosed with ADHD and I had to put him on medication. They have been wanting to do this for 4 years and I have refused, exclaiming there has to be something other than meds to help him. So, we did therapy, herbal things, diet, everything! I was getting certified letters from the school stating he can not focus and was having a hard time paying attention. I had him in tutoring, we worked so hard all school year on the things he didn't understand, all to no avail. I scheduled with the doc and gave in. I am kind of happy I did, he seems to be doing better, being less hyper, and paying attention more just in the past couple weeks. He doesn't get upset as easily, he is not angry all the time now. This was just something that had to happen. He says he feels better and even makes sure to remind me to give him his medicine every morning at breakfast...even though it is already waiting for him to get his cup with his drink in it!

I have a ton os awesome sweepstakes to post also! Have you won anything recently? I won a $200 visa gift card which I applies about $85 of it toward my Kindle Fire HD...I had over $100 in Amazon money from all the reward sites! Take care everyone!

It's been a while...

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I have some awesome updates! Our little foster girl is transitioning to her mother's care! This is great since lil girl needs her mom and brother. My daughter was done with school on May 22, but the other 2 just finished on Wednesday 6/5. We have been super busy. But remember:


I have been taking much needed family time the past 2-3 weeks. As well as attending the appointments for the kids, school functions, and doing some fun things here with them.

We have been watching some frogs at the pond, check out how cool it is that we found the eggs, and then kept checking back until they were tadpoles. We will head to the pond today and see if we have any legs and lost any tails yet! The kids have loved this experiment. Just one more reason I love my farm house in the middle of nowhere!





Here is a caterpillar we found and it is changing to a butterfly! Plus some turkeys that visit just about everyday, 2 gobblers and 2 hens.




We had some issues with the terrible weather here in PA, windy windy windy, I still have trees to clean up and cut!



Since all the things with the foster kid happened so fast after we moved in, we never got to do any of the updates to the farm house that we had planned prior to moving in. Here are a couple things we have done in the past few weeks! Painting the bathroom, decorating the kitchen, trying to keep put the critters (man country living isn't exactly how I remember it lol).



Everyone did so well in school. Nevaeh went on to Kindergarten! Zachary is being promoted to Second grade and received outstanding achievement award for going from failing in the beginning of the school year to passing with a b average! Trinity in 5 months learned her colors, shapes, alphabet, count to 10 and how to write her name! I am so proud of these guys. We are having a celebration cook out tomorrow for them inviting a bunch of family and having cake and ice cream after dinner!



Nevaeh got her ears pierced!



We got to attend Kids' Day America 2013 and the kid road horses, played games, and had a blast! We also had a fire the first warm night and the kids enjoyed smores. We made a few pinterest projects, including the cardboard tube flowers below, which they later painted and added glitter to! Plus we set up the sand box. All the while making sure the grass has been cut once per week at least (this takes 6-8 hours!) in the yard and field we use as well as around the pond.












There have been a few other things, but my camera is in my car, which the fiancee has today so I can't upload them, I got these from my personal Facebook page and off of my new cell phone. There was a nice fun day/race day held at our elementary school which I signed up the kids to attend. They have a blast. After the race, they played games and won prizes. Lil girl's mom was able to attend too, and she had her first overnight visit afterward!

We then went to Chuck E Cheese's which I posted a little rant on FB about since I was so looking forward to taking the day out with just my kids, and they were terrible, we even went out to lunch at McDonald's like they asked to. We have gone out to the mall several times, just to walk around and see what is on sale. Man I am so happy to be back on the blog and getting reviews and giveaways up for you all. I have a wonderful Hasbro review for the new Bejeweled coming up so stay tuned!

Have a great Friday everyone. I will definitely be posting more later on.

Easter Bunny Lane 2013 @ Kraynak's - Sharon, PA

As I have been posting since around August last year, we have had some extra kiddos come in and out of the house. They are family, my fiancee's niece and nephew. We still have lil girl, but brother has been sent with his dad, and their mom and he are back together. They are trying so hard to get their family back, and have a home and happy life together. One thing about this whole situation, we are family. People make mistakes, I'm not saying this should have happened, but I do believe it was for the best that this series of unfortunate events happened. In the end, they are getting what they deserve, loving a loving supportive family. We are just waiting on the legals to get done so lil girl can head home with her mom, step dad, and brother!

Last weekend I posted on Facebook that I would be out most of the weekend, as we had a nice get together planned for our lil girl to see her mom, brother, and soon to be step dad. All the kids had a great time, Evan's brother was there too! Check out the slideshow of the amazing set displays Kraynak's had this year!

Easter Bunny Lane 2013 - slideshows

It was a super day!

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Fear, as I have never experienced it before!

I have mentioned a few times that we had 2 foster children living with us, that is why I have been so behind on posting and doing giveaways. The little boy, Evan, has already returned to his father, a few weeks ago, but the little girl is here to stay for a while. She has a lot of problems, which I have discussed a little bit. She never had anyone to teach her things, her colors & shapes, the ABCs, daily living routines, etc... Now, both kiddos are my fiancee's sister's children and she was in some trouble, but is now trying to get her life straight. I couldn't let these guys go out to regular foster homes, everything that happened to them wan't their fault, they are the ones who paid for the mistakes of adults. I am happy that his sister is finally getting her life together and trying desperately to get her daughter back. She and the little boy's father are back together and being a mom and dad like they should be. However, little girl has a different father and he is, ummmm, forget that, he is not around... She has been taken into full custody of CYS, and placed with us. We have been state certified as a foster home and trying to get her on track.

Now, like I said at therapy with her the other day, she has come so far, and I am so happy that I could give that to her, but there are still some important things missing. Such as, yesterday, my daughter had speech therapy. We took her there she had her session, we always head down the street if they were good, and get a doughnut or cookie with an orange pop to share. Then they have that while we head about 15 minutes over to Nevaeh's school. First, little girl dumped the remainder of the 20 oz. bottle of orange pop all over the back seat and never said anything...found out because I sat the mail on the seat later in the day and it of course all turned orange and was sticky! Before I realized about the pop, we had run into the Dollar General on the way home for me to get some conditioner for my hair (I am out of Parnevu at the moment and have to wait for my package!). We ran in, grabbed some, and headed back out to the car since I was running late and she would miss her school bus. I let her hand go, just to grab my keys out of my purse, turned and SHE WAS GONE - I could not see her anywhere, seriously, I was screaming for her, running up and down the sidewalk in front of the store... A little old man gets out of his car and says "Is this little girl yours?" I look in his car (which is nothing like my car at all), and she is sitting in his back seat.

She seriously ran to a strangers car and got in with out prompting. Without any indication she should get into that car. Now, I have been telling the foster care agency that she has no stranger danger fear, no personal boundaries or anything, so she is attending therapy for that, no one ever taught her. I try my best, but this was the most frightening thing I ever experienced. She is 6, we were standing 2 cars away from my car on a sidewalk, in front of a store where there was no road or anything since it is set back off the main road, (The new store on Rt. 8, Butler, PA), I never would have thought that I could not let her hand go for 3 seconds while I grabbed my keys from the top of my purse. I was so scared. My kids would never - EVER think of getting into a strange car. She had not one second thought. I am in no way a bad mother a neglectful mother, but this was totally terrible and should have never happened, I will admit...but what was I to do, it happened, I talked to her, explained to her the danger, what if that man was not a nice old man, what if he was a mean man who took you away and hurt you... Nothing about this is sinking in. She has no fear of strangers, and I honestly believe that since she was always told, hey you are gonna stay here it will be ok, she is immune to fear of strangers.

So later when I discovered the pop on the back seat, I was about to rip my hair out. Good thing I got that conditioner, after I put her on her school bus I had 2.5 hours to do whatever, and blogging was the plan. I wanted to blog about Rare Disease day, and Harlem Globe Trotters coming to Pittsburgh in April, but I had to relax, BUBBLE BATH YES PLEASE!

So, I had finally experienced a fear I have never felt. What would I have done had that man drove off with her. How do you call a foster care agency and say by the way I lost my foster child? I am so upset with myself over this incident, but honestly, 3-5 seconds at the most, and she took off like a greyhound at the races, straight to a stranger's car! Any comments, encouragement, or tips on how to make her understand stranger danger, I am not sure I am reaching her. Her next individual therapy is Tuesday, so I will definitely bring this incident up! Thanks for reading and giving me any thoughts you might have!

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